i think of my eljay on this day.

let it be known that on the even of thanksgiving 2009, president barack obama's limo drove by the feminist sex shop in which i work, downstairs from greenpeace headquarters, who i joined in waving "stop global warming" signs at aforementioned limo.

AND i got a cute dyke's number today.

sweet. life.

it's so odd to think my life is going on in such a way that a friend in a bar might actually say to me, "you should take that job in LA."

so those boys, who are following us from our dorm to SEB events to the rugby field, have now taken it upon themselves to destroy our posters once again and write "dykes" across our door.

i am, in some ways, so excited to graduate.

the pg county in me cringes at her articulation, inflection, pronunciation, etc., but also, i love it a little.

i am supposed to be watching Matewon, and it is on in the background, but i can't concentrate, since dr. benson has spoiled me on intellectual conversations about racism, and i can no longer have the patience for the "what?...racism didn't end with slavery?" theme better suited for someone with an IQ like ___ ____, a girl whose name shall be spared but who, in my women and human rights class, said: "i just don't think racism or sexism are issues anymore." hey, thanks for contributing.

we talked about hegel's lord/servant theory today, WHICH WAS SO INTERESTING, and so satisfying to understand. i think its why most people look to those in more patriarchally rewarded categories, i.e. the closest thing resembling a white hetero abled affluent male, for support/approval/etc. i ALSO think it explains the whole peter pan effect in cinema.

also contributing to the peter pan effect--a theory i've recently constructed--is the fact that the white hetero abled affluent male has the most fascinating and engaging experience, primarily because he is unoppressed, and therefore, has more experiences, opportunities, and people open to him, which, if we're pursuing this idea that popular cinema is primarily constructed for profit and that escapism is the most entertaining/profitable, then it all falls into place perfectly. i mean, i did really enjoy the darjeeling limited.

on a completely unrelated note, i find it outrageously awkward to see pictures of a current love interest with their former flame. and by awkward i mean uncomfortable. which i guess is again just tribute to the ownership aspect of monogomous relationships. thats why i would like to one day engage in a nonmonogomous relationship, and see how i handle it. ultimately, i definitely couldnt, although its interesting to think about raising (a) kid(s) with multiple other people. fascinating, at least.

off to curl up with my sleepytime tea, tissues, and the strongest drug i can find within a six foot radius.

last saturday we went to DC! adams morgan, african shops, falafel, duponte!, HRC store!!, guitar shop!!!, indian dinner

this friday the boys had a ridiculous dance party from which i am still recovering. it was the most fun. EVER.

saturday we went to F&M to cheer on ladies' bball, and i guess, techncially, men's bball as well.

today is so gorgeous i skipped thesis work to go to sam's and do meaningless homework. its literally 64 outside right now.

i wish i ahd more time to expand and appreciate the amazingly fun things i sometimes do, but i can't. on with homework!

He's also set to sign the Lily Ledbetter Act, which passed in the Senate two nights ago!

And on an unrelated note, this made me giggle:




Bratz Dolls May Give Young Girls Unrealistic Expectations Of Head Size

"We are no longer a manipulated mass, a nation of children embarrassed by our father's simple-mindedness and impulsive rage."

it is so strange to actually be living through the moments that define history, to think that one day i will likely say to someone much younger and beautifully unaware of the radical injustices we know now, "i was a senior in undergrad when we elected the first black president of the united states." we were practically crying in cac forum today, cheering and yelling and clapping our way through the inauguration.

also, wade wants me... in her human rights and social justice. what am i to do? she wants it, so, i gotta give it to her.

now to bed so i can wake up for 6 AM power hour with mike duquette.

moves i have ADORED:
-itty bitty titty committee
-for the bible tells me so
-if these walls could talk 2
-red without blue
-milk
-the life and times of harvey milk
-fall from grace

other good movies:
-love my life
-lost and delirious
-kissing jessica stein
-tipping the velvet
-goldfish memory
-small town gay bar
-she likes girls [but ONLY the last film short - the rest are a little awful]
-before stonewall
-i can't marry you

thank you netflix.

sadly, a movie i have eyt to see is milk, but i read this hella interesting article about it here. my favorite quote:

"Gay history -- unedited -- is ugly, angry, and violent. It's police dragging us out of cellar bars and down to the station to gang fuck the femmes and face-rape the butches, queens, and trannies. It's military witch hunts; suicides and "experimental therapies," from lobotomies and electro-shock to Christian boot camps. It's Stonewall, where we showered raiding police with bottles, locked them in the bar, and set it afire. It's ACT UP and chaining ourselves to pharmaceutical companies' fences to protest AIDS drugs price gouging.

Politeness has become homophobia's most popular mask....I want fresh salt poured on the wounds of Proposition 8 so that queers will stop apologizing for being angry with the Mormon and Catholic Church, and for boycotting supporters. I want fresh rage directed at Barack Obama for thinking that including a gay marching band in his inauguration proceedings compensates for his having invited a notorious homophobe and anti-Semite to give the invocation."

i spent the day making presents! lots of tying and painting and creativity. and now my mom and i are drinking and decorating the tree. oh, holidays.

i also managed to watch "love my life," a chinese [?] language lesbian film about a girl whose parents were both gay? and her current relationship. idk, i liked it.

and i really liked finding this: queereyecandy.com

This country is afraid of us, but they don't know who we are.

We're hot, we're fierce, we're vulnerable, we're beautiful, we're in love, we're horribly ugly, we're scared, we're tender-hearted, we're dog mommies and daddies, we're parents, we're children, we're neices and nephews, we're married, we're bachelors, we're rednecks, we're blue-collar, we're construction workers, we're political pundits, we're musicians, we're drag performers, we're community organizers, we're angry, we're activists, we're just us.

Let's show off who we are. Let's show those who don't know what we look like, let's show off who we love and who we spend our time with, let's show off our joyous communities and our heartaches and our hardships and our work and our play and our joy.

Let's celebrate ourselves, just as we are.

( we are not the enemy<3 )

"people change; things become difficult...that conspiracy, that phenomena of the passage of time through moments reinforced by actions that chisle so delicately at your character, that affect so minutely the person you are to become, to be, to have been--time changes things, i suppose. i know they do. it's one of life's tragedies."

how douchey is it to quote yourself? less so if you're able to footnote; damn your lack of footnoting capabilities, livejournal!

i have just been contemplative. hmm.

i want to be a member of it. aka, i just finished watching itty bitty titty committee for the first time. <3! RADICAL FEMINISTS GO!

i always watched iron jawed angels while reading reruns of dykes to watch out for in lesbian connection

and i started the art project i wanted to do with that lady manniquin thing wes and ct gave me

it was a nice, lesbo, feministy day.

p.s. lily told her mom i'm her girlfriend! her response?: "like i didn't know, right? she's cute."

:)

“Religion is far more of a choice than homosexuality, and the protections that we have for religion…we protect religion—and talk about a lifestyle choice—that is absolutely a choice, and gay people don’t choose to be gay.”






“You talk about the pro-life movement being one of the great shames of our nation, I think if you want number two, it’s this. I think it’s an absolute travesty that people have forced someone who is gay to make their case that they deserve the same basic rights as everyone else."

birthday ball theme has been taken, finally, from drag ball, and given to comedy week.

why would this happen, after the initial scuffle over actually announcing it AT drag ball? we "compromised" by having it announced beforehand--and now not at all. and no one told me, and its the day before the event. why?

because comedy week is more important than drag ball, because an SEB concoction is more valuable than an AIDS benefit, because the majority is more important than the minority.

because this campus does not give a shit about LGBT, or any other minority, at all.

do you know i had to sit down and make a plan of defense, in case someone attacked us? in case someone, on this 1200+ person campus, decided they wanted to physically object to the Drag Ball, and came to the ball to start a fight?

i did, because our school does not have one.

this is the campus i live on

where this is no respect or protection for us, where people publically denounce gay rights in one elm article, and denounce my letter to the editor on the subject in the next.

i will quit my internship, and abstain from all seb committees from now on. i don't care about comedy week in light of this.

and i don't care about how this will negatively affect me, because it will. because no one else will protest, or even care. because why would the majority protest? the majority is content, and thats all that matters. fuck all the others. "i would do the same thing if i were in your position." well, you never will be.

everyone was too excited about obama to bat an eye at the slew of anti-gay laws passed throughout this country last tuesday. when i'd bring it up, people would say, "yea, but obama.." or "don't be negative."

i'm sorry if my negativity is weighing down your heterosexual good time.

goddamn this fucking campus.

http://www.democracynow.org/2008/11/7/new_hampshire_becomes_first_state_senate

sweet jam, new hampshire! 13 of the 24 state senators are women<3

O+

...cherishable. We are millions of human beings who love, mate, embrace, parent, mentor and live. The only difference is our non-heteronormativity.

From the darkest moments of the LGBT rights movement have risen the greatest coming together of our community. If victories make us complacent, it is our defeats that rally us to a new level of community and activism. We stood up after mortal blows from Anita Bryant pushing her anti-gay vitriol in Florida. We rallied to the bedside of Matthew Shephard in his family’s time of tribulation. More recently, we re-committed our vows to protect our youngest members in the wake of the murder of Lawrence King by a fellow classmate. In the wake of the passage of Prop 8, we see now and will see another historic re-awakening of our community."

this video made my leg hair stand on ends<3

"And don't forget something else: The sickly, reclusive billionaires and scabrous Blackwater moms who spent their personal millions forcing their intolerance on California by way of Proposition 8? The kind of dysfunctional, ultrawealthy fanatics who not only pray to a dour and heartwrenching God every single day that Christian militants take over the country so we could, quite literally, stone all the gays to death, but who have the millions to fund their nightmares?"

so the fact remains that i am, in the face of most laws, not human.

what is the value of potential, and hope, and all these abstract optimisms when reality is still so desperate?

violations of ceasefire in shoufat and bustan, assassination threats here in america. and a crumbling economy build on the global backs of the nonwhite nonrich, from the very founding of this country up until the end of it, i'd bet. hmmmm.

i wasted all morning laying in bed with my lady with barack obama as the president elect